Since I was here in UP, I always smile and I always cry. I smile because of my success like being one of the honors. I cry because of the challenges and problems I’ve faced. Honestly I say, UP is so hard. It’s so hard to be here at 7:30 every morning. When you enter the campus, problems are starting to come over you. When you enter the classroom, you’ll see students busy studying and reading. Then you sit on your chair and also do the same things. Then the bell rings. Everybody is hurrying and returning their books to their bags because the teacher is there already. The test will start right away. Then you remember what time you slept last night. You studied the whole night. You reject watching television because of the test the following day. Then you suddenly forget one item on the test. You recall the things you had studied last night. Buy you can’t still remember. Oh my god! Well, if I know, that’s one of the expressions used of some students when they are on the same situation. Then the teacher suddenly said that the test is over. Then they will be checking of the test papers. When the papers are returned, your score just passed the passing grade. Then you feel like crying. Then you blame yourself because you didn’t study so much. Then you walked out of the room and go the comfort room and have all your tears falling there.
I really don’t want those things to happen me. I don’t want to imagine myself having low scores as failed scores. I don’t want to cry because of that reason. I want to be proud of myself even in just a little way. But as I journey everyday, the roads are getting harder to cross and longer to reach the end. I just wish I could have special powers that when I say study, my body would follow. And when I say recall, my brain will go back to the book’s page and tell me the correct the answer. But that is impossible, very impossible.
But despite of all the projects, assignments, researches and everything, I always have hope that I can do them all in time and in proper way. Every time I feel tired, I just sing a song and entertain myself so that I can’t sleep. See how hard it is to be UPian. I’m thankful that my classmates are also supportive. They believe in me as much as I believe in them. They appreciate me as much as I appreciate their abilities. I love my classmates and they are one of my inspirations. I just hope they will not stop loving me because I will never be tired of loving them. As much as I can, as much as I do, I will never surrender. I’ll do what it takes to be a successful person. I want to be like my father that even if he is already married, he is still trying to reach his goals. He is still working hard to be a great father to us. I just wish that my family would support me ‘till the end. I hope that they will not be tired of my excuses when I go home late or when I am not at home during rest days. I hope that until the very end of my life they could say, “GO GIRL!!!”
I really don’t want those things to happen me. I don’t want to imagine myself having low scores as failed scores. I don’t want to cry because of that reason. I want to be proud of myself even in just a little way. But as I journey everyday, the roads are getting harder to cross and longer to reach the end. I just wish I could have special powers that when I say study, my body would follow. And when I say recall, my brain will go back to the book’s page and tell me the correct the answer. But that is impossible, very impossible.
But despite of all the projects, assignments, researches and everything, I always have hope that I can do them all in time and in proper way. Every time I feel tired, I just sing a song and entertain myself so that I can’t sleep. See how hard it is to be UPian. I’m thankful that my classmates are also supportive. They believe in me as much as I believe in them. They appreciate me as much as I appreciate their abilities. I love my classmates and they are one of my inspirations. I just hope they will not stop loving me because I will never be tired of loving them. As much as I can, as much as I do, I will never surrender. I’ll do what it takes to be a successful person. I want to be like my father that even if he is already married, he is still trying to reach his goals. He is still working hard to be a great father to us. I just wish that my family would support me ‘till the end. I hope that they will not be tired of my excuses when I go home late or when I am not at home during rest days. I hope that until the very end of my life they could say, “GO GIRL!!!”
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